時(shí)光荏苒，轉(zhuǎn)眼間，我已迎來了自己的四十歲生日。回首過去的一年，感慨萬千。

2023 年 5 月，我在成都市第三人民醫(yī)院經(jīng)歷了心臟瓣膜手術(shù)，那是一段艱難的時(shí)光，讓我對生命有了更深的敬畏。而去年五月，我的老丈人因心梗突然離世，這突如其來的打擊讓我更加明白生命的脆弱與無常。

在這一年里，我從 9 月開始發(fā)表抖音成都街巷視頻，講述少城街巷、成都橋、非少城街巷的歷史。我將腦海中的智慧分享出來，希望能讓更多的人了解這座城市的故事。曾經(jīng)，我在乎別人的眼光，在乎誰更先進(jìn)，誰得到的獎金更高。然而，隨著歲月的流逝，我逐漸明白，這些外在的物質(zhì)都是過眼云煙，“一切有為法，如夢幻泡影，如露亦如電，應(yīng)作如是觀?！本腿纭督饎偨?jīng)》中所云，世間萬物皆無常，那些物質(zhì)的追求終究不過是一場空。

如今，我更珍視那些能帶得走的東西，比如情感、感情和刻骨銘心的記憶。我開始用蘋果手機(jī)錄制視頻，將其發(fā)布在抖音上，讓我的講解傳遞給每一個(gè)人。這看似是用帶不走的物質(zhì)換取了帶得走的記憶，但其實(shí)，這是我對生命意義的重新追尋。“心無掛礙，無掛礙故，無有恐怖?！闭纭缎慕?jīng)》所言，當(dāng)我們放下內(nèi)心的執(zhí)著和牽掛，才能真正獲得內(nèi)心的平靜和安寧。過去，我為了功名利祿而奔波，內(nèi)心充滿了焦慮和恐懼。而現(xiàn)在，我通過分享知識和歷史，感受到了一種前所未有的滿足和快樂。四十歲的我，不再被世俗的標(biāo)準(zhǔn)所束縛，不再為了虛榮和攀比而活。我明白了人生的真諦在于內(nèi)心的富足和靈魂的安寧。每一個(gè)抖音視頻下的評論和點(diǎn)贊，都讓我感受到了人與人之間的連接和溫暖，這是金錢無法買到的珍貴財(cái)富。

回顧這四十年的人生，有歡笑也有淚水，有成功也有失敗。但正是這些經(jīng)歷，塑造了今天的我。我不再為過去的錯誤而懊悔，也不再為未來的未知而恐懼。因?yàn)槲抑?，無論發(fā)生什么，都是生命的一部分，都是我成長的契機(jī)。在未來的日子里，我希望能夠繼續(xù)保持這份初心，用更多的視頻記錄下生活中的美好和智慧。我要把更多的愛給予家人和朋友，珍惜每一個(gè)與他們相處的瞬間。因?yàn)?，?dāng)我們離開這個(gè)世界時(shí)，真正能留下的，只有那些溫暖人心的情感和回憶。四十歲，是人生的一個(gè)新起點(diǎn)。我將帶著這份感悟，勇敢地迎接未來的挑戰(zhàn)和機(jī)遇，用一顆寬容、善良和感恩的心，去書寫屬于自己的精彩人生。愿我們都能在這短暫而珍貴的人生旅途中，找到真正屬于自己的幸福和意義。

Time flies. In the blink of an eye, I have ushered in my fortieth birthday. Looking back on the past year, I am filled with countless emotions.

In May 2023, I underwent heart valve surgery at Chengdu Third People's Hospital. That was a difficult time that made me hold a deeper reverence for life. And last May, my father-in-law suddenly passed away due to a heart attack. This sudden blow made me understand even more the fragility and impermanence of life.

During this year, I started posting Douyin videos about the streets of Chengdu in September, telling the history of Shaocheng streets, Chengdu bridges, and non-Shaocheng streets. I shared the wisdom in my mind, hoping to let more people know the stories of this city.

Once upon a time, I cared about the opinions of others, who was more advanced, and who received a higher bonus. However, as time passed, I gradually realized that all these external materials are fleeting clouds. "All conditioned phenomena are like a dream, an illusion, a bubble, and a shadow. They are like dew and lightning, and should be regarded thus." Just as mentioned in the "Diamond Sutra", everything in the world is impermanent, and those pursuits of materials are ultimately nothing but an illusion.

Nowadays, I cherish more those things that I can take away, such as emotions, feelings, and unforgettable memories. I started using an iPhone to record videos and post them on Douyin, allowing my explanations to reach everyone. This seemingly exchanging the material things that I can't take away for the memories that I can take away is actually my re-pursuit of the meaning of life.

"With no attachments, because of no attachments, there is no terror." Just as stated in the "Heart Sutra", when we let go of the inner persistence and concerns, we can truly obtain inner peace and tranquility. In the past, I rushed about for fame and fortune, and my heart was filled with anxiety and fear. Now, through sharing knowledge and history, I feel an unprecedented sense of satisfaction and happiness.

At the age of forty, I am no longer bound by worldly standards and no longer live for vanity and comparisons. I have understood that the true meaning of life lies in inner richness and the peace of the soul. Every comment and like under my Douyin videos makes me feel the connection and warmth between people, which is a precious fortune that money cannot buy.

Looking back on these forty years of life, there have been laughter and tears, successes and failures. But it is precisely these experiences that have shaped who I am today. I no longer regret past mistakes nor fear the unknown future. Because I know that no matter what happens, it is all part of life and an opportunity for my growth.

In the days to come, I hope to continue to maintain this original intention and record more beauty and wisdom in life with more videos. I want to give more love to my family and friends and cherish every moment spent with them. Because when we leave this world, what can truly be left behind are only those heartwarming emotions and memories.

At the age of forty, it is a new starting point in life. I will carry this perception, bravely embrace the challenges and opportunities in the future, and write my own wonderful life with a forgiving, kind, and grateful heart. May we all find true happiness and meaning in this short and precious journey of life.